I began my pursuit of the elusive agent in high school. Only, it wasn’t much of a pursuit. It was more like a half-hearted gesture in their general direction.
It went like this:
I wrote something.
I called it a book.
So did my mother.
And so I printed it out and mailed it off
to one or two agents (I honestly don’t remember how many) along with my Hopes
and Dreams of becoming an Author. It didn’t take long to receive rejections (I
only clearly remember one) and that was the end of that. I set novel-writing
aside and instead went to college, which later became grad school, which then
became a career.
Basically, my creative self was off sitting
in a corner tapping her toe, occasionally calling me names and making
frustrated gestures (possibly, some of them were obscene).
So! I decided she needed some exercise and
with the support of my partner, I began to carve out time here and there for
things like writing and playing my cello and hoarding nail polish. Each of
these was satisfying to Creative Natalie P, but writing quickly rose to the
surface taking precedence over all other endeavors.
By the early months of 2010, I’d written
something that was vaguely book-shaped. It had all the right pieces in all the
right places and I was resoundingly proud of it. I handed it over to a few
readers (oblivious to the duct tape holding key pieces together, the persistent
droop in the narrative arc – it was positively replete with mediocrity) and
felt relatively sure it would blow their minds.
It did not.
They both returned the vaguely book-shaped
manuscript to me with the same words: “This is really good, but you can do
better. Put it down and write another.”
I never queried that project. Not even
once.
In an instant, I went from Ready to Query
to Starting from Scratch. And that very day, I started brainstorming a very
different project. Creative Natalie P wasn’t feeling defeated, as I’d expected
she would, but anxious and inspired. In fact, there was a certain amount of
glee involved in shutting the drawer on that novel and opening a blank
document. Much as I loved that first novel, I knew my next one would only be
better, and I wanted to be better just as much as I wanted an agent.
The new project took a fair bit of time –
nearly a year. I was still balancing full-time work with learning this craft
and other daily adventure sorts of affairs. I drafted and redrafted and
re-redrafted until once again I was certain I had something that would blow
minds.
This time when I handed it over to readers,
it looked much more solid. It had all the bookly pieces in all the right places
and I could see they fit together really, really well. And my readers agreed. It
blew their minds….but still we went through rounds and round of revision until
finally (FINALLY!) they called it ready.
And it was.
I sent queries to my top seven agents. Six
requested the full, and four offered representation.
Three weeks after sending those queries, I
made an utterly terrifying, utterly exhilarating choice and signed with my
agent (who, for what it’s worth, pulled me from the slush).
When I think back on it, I am so, so glad
that I had readers who were willing to tell me I could do better. Listening to
them was hard. I was anxious to move onto the next step. I wanted to believe
that first manuscript was it. But I’m so glad that I waited.
I love Creative Natalie's illustration. And I love when blood, sweat, and tears become something successful. Four offers! Great advice, Natalie.
ReplyDeleteBake until ready. Good advice indeed. I think I'm still half-baked myself - more of those tears and whatnot needed!
DeleteThanks! And I'm glad you enjoyed that painstakingly wrought illustration. ;)
DeleteHaha, that illustration is fantastic. As is this story! Way to go, Creative Natalie!
ReplyDeleteMany thanks!
DeleteGreat story Natalie!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kate!
DeleteGo, Natalie! Awesome story :)
ReplyDelete:D
DeleteIt's wonderful to hear another success story.
ReplyDeleteNatalie, you've shown your resilience and determination. And thank goodness for great friends who support writing endeavours. I wish you much success.
Thanks, Amaleen! Having good cps/readers/friends is really crucial to this whole process. It's easy to lose sight of the bigger picture when you're in the thick of things.
DeletePatience is grand isn't it? So hard to do sometimes though
ReplyDeleteGreat journey by the way, and to get so many agents wanting more, and then offering representation. Wow, very impressive indeed :)
Matt (Turndog Millionaire)
Patience is definitely worth cultivating. It seems that nearly everything involved with writer requires it in great volume!
DeleteWhat an inspiring journey! I love that you were able to really work on your craft and I'm so happy that your patience (and hard work) paid off! Thanks to Natalie for sharing this and (of course) thank you Ruth for posting it! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're very welcome : ) I love this series!
DeleteYou're welcome! Thanks for reading. :)
DeleteYay, such an awesome ending to your story (or this chapter of your story, haha :D ) Very inspiring, Natalie! And I'm so glad your creative self told you what's up - and gladder still that you listened!
ReplyDeleteAwesome illustration. I'm pretty sure I've written that very same book! Including the coffee stains and tears :D
Me too! I was just talking with a Professor about how important is to make time for the things that really make you happy when it's possible.
DeleteAnd thanks for your kind words about the illustration. ;)